Have you ever felt like you just want to curl up in bed and hide from the pain? Try to ignore it? Hope it will go away? Pretend its not there?
Yep! Me too!
One thing I have learned over the years is how much pain is actually a gift! A gift from God. Truly! And ignoring the pain will only leave it trapped inside and possibly create more havoc.
So, today- I chose to focus on my pain. IT SUCKED! Really! It did. It was hard. It was ugly and I cried in the shower for over 45 minutes and continued to be teary the rest of the day.
I chose to focus on the pain because I knew it was time to acknowledge it. I've always known it was there, but held it inside so that I didn't appear weak or out of control.
Can you relate?
The pain I focused on today was not a physical pain but an emotional one. One that has built up for over twenty-five years.
The scariest part about opening up this wound was wondering if it would heal or just ooze forever.
I chose to focus on the pain today, open it up to the Light and trust that it is better there than trapped inside of me.
Did I heal my pain in one day? NOPE! A big fat NOPE! However, I feel it is the beginning of now being able to discover the depth of emotion attached to it.
I am a firm believer that we hold our emotions in our bodies at a physical level. This particular emotion, I believe I've been holding in my liver and gut area. (If this interests you- let me know and let's chat more.)
For now- deep breaths, shoulders back and prayers lifted for the wound to heal.
I am grateful on this beautiful 4th of July to have Freedom to Choose. Today, I chose pain.
Smiling at you from behind my screen,🥰